Heuh

my mental state right now is so bad.

so bad i have no desire to eat.

i drove my car thinking it will be good if i crash it to a wall. i will be good, feels good, no more heavy burden, no more obligation, no more thought. but i know its not. i will facing two angel when i die. they will slaughtered me, then i will go to hell. so im not doing it. i better live right now.

i hate my self right now.

but no need to worry, this suicidal thought have been there in my mind since my teenage, and i go through it bc i am afraid to be in hell.

i will go through it again.

i will be okay.

no love,, Meeya Sabrina

Terjadi Lagi

Mei di Bulan Mei. .

Terulang lagi kejadian ini.

Dimana gw galau, karna besok gw makin tua.

Gw gamau tua, dan lemah, dan sakit..

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Galau.

Tapi kan kita pasti tua.

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Kecuali kamu mau mati muda, (aku gak mau).


So let me be old, and wise, and healthy, and rich, and happy.


Today im 29, tomorow ill be 30, age just a number, deep inside im just a wise teenager :D

Its okay Abin. You will be okay.

with love,, Meeya Sabrina